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how can i sit here and act like everything is ok. i cant the words that are being thrown around are piercing to the heart. divorce and i hate yous and some other things flying through th air like no one will be hurt. will the numbness last for only a few min an hour how long because im ready to give in now. family screaming in the other room what can i do. i dont want to be in the middle of it anymore. can you see that you are hurting me by yelling at eachother. i want to be at rest and silence wrap me in its arms. i want the comfort that seems never to come to stay forever. can this "hell on earth" last much longer. i just want it to be peaceful and serene again. when it is like that is when i am asleep or when i am away from here. any place but here. i want to just go back to sleep and let the numbness melt away as i drift into a pleasant sleep. will it come? not today not now maybe tonight.